Love you Grandma

There was this question which was asked to me in various interviews/questionnares-Which was the saddest moment in your life till date. To be honest,i would rather think for 5 minutes before coming up with a stupid ‘fabricated moment’ that would sound good. But there was a moment that completely left me shattered on February 9th,2009. The message that i got from my cousin sister after i just completed my strategy lecture read as follows  ‘Bro..Our Grandma has left. It was a peaceful departure’.  For a moment i felt blank and was left with disbelief. Then i pressed the back button in my mobile and there were around 16 missed calls from my mom,dad and brother. Yes, this was the saddest moment in my life without a doubt till now…

To add salt to my wound, i could not see her for a last time since reaching home from Delhi in time for the cremation was impossible. A person who played a significant role in my upbringing, my grandma holds a special place in my heart. Having stayed with her throughout my life there are a huge lot of things that she has done in making me what i am today. Scoldings i used to get from her, her constant way of motivating me to study well during my school days, waking me up for practise in the morning during the days when cricket was my life, preparing all those dish i liked without me asking her  to make and the pocket money she used to give till the time i started earning..all these and a lot more has made her a very special person.Being a close knit and orthodox muslim family, she along with my parents(who are my world and for whom i am living for) was responsible for inculcating the discipline in me, be it praying 5 times a day, respect for all individuals and to make me understand the importance of family bonding..

I still remember the day when i got the message, i was compeltely expressionless for a while. I did not shed a tear and tried to be normal with my B-school friends although i wasn’t completely able to do that. I still managed to see the day pass by controlling my frustration of not able to go home  and see her for one last time. 20 days has past since then, and things back home has come to normal. But for me you still exists in this world advising me, scolding me, listening to my sorrows and sharing my moments of happiness in the days to come. You still is one of the people that drives me forward to excel in life..Love you lots velluma..Meet you in heaven…

-ARIF HASSAN

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